#1 Freedom of the press is not a real thing. Not in the truest sense of the phrase that is. Now having been an official member of the press for almost 4 years, I realize there are rules to follow. Ethics that we have to abide by and our opinions are never to be known. Lastly, just because something is in a public record, does not mean it can ever be brought to light again.
#2 I have been living with autoimmune disease more intensely in these last few years. Looking back now, I know that I have been afflicted since I was a child. We simply did not talk about those things or diagnose them in the 80s or 90s. I am finally to the root of all of my problems, yet it is still threatening to extinguish my light.
#3 Living with children that came from a trauma background, gives the parents PTSD. Yes, I did say that. It is officially called residual PTSD. As if it makes it any better. Or any less stressful? I hate to say that I would not recommend most people in this world adopting children who have come from such troubled backgrounds. Would I undo what I’ve already done? No.
The foster system as a whole is completely and irreversibly broken. And all of the people who said that they would help, who vowed to be part of a support system faded into nothing. Disappeared. And as a parent, you are left alone trying to figure out how to move forward. How to best help the children that you have welcomed into your home and how to keep yourself sane.
Rest is elusive.
Trust is destroyed every single day by those you are trying desperately to help heal.
Until you feel broken into nothingness.

Thoughts of Enigmatic Minds 